2018.02.13 火曜日 화요일 Reflections on past hoarding (Éclat d’Arpège, La Vie En Rose, Sakura Matcha Kit Kats, Kirrawee)

So at some point in the Kon Mari method

it mentions not bumming around in sweats at home

NOT VERBATIM

but essentially

dress nice, even when no one sees you.

It affects your mood.


Texas has been cold for a bit longer than usual.

global warming no doubt.

or maybe not… but I’m sure it has to do with it.


ANYWAY

I used to hoard perfumes I liked,

the kit kats you can only get at the airport LEAVING Japan

(the BEST tasting omiyage お土産 outside of tokyo banana),

and I had an affinity for lingerie.


Granted, I still do

but definitely spend less time and money on it

bc, well, I am chronically single.

I more or less have been this way for a while.

I am choosey

and when I find a partner

(honestly, dudes don’t really care for the most part.)

In my haste, I forget to pack it in the bag

or see a good way to transition without losing momentum.

I am all for aesthetics but

costume changes

when you’re in the middle of stuff

kind of messes up the pace.

#JustSayin

Ladies, we are wearing that for OURSELVES.


Every once in a while,

they might affectionately touch the material

while your back is turned

(afterwards)

like Noctis did

but that doesn’t happen often.


I have this one really pretty floor length dress for sleeping

basically bridal lingerie

and I assure you it is over ten years old.

I am definitely not getting married soon lol.

With the minimalists

and Marie Kondo

they point out, what’s the point of hoarding rare items

if you aren’t going to use them?


I have special edition kit kats I haven’t eaten (yet)

bc of the rarity of the item.

When I did those mass purchases of my favorite

also very hard to find irl perfume(s)

*Namely Éclat d’Arpège I hoarded off ebay auctions 10+ years ago*

I wore it on ‘special occasions.’

(But BY THE BY I pretty much polished off the Éclat d’Arpège)

or sprayed letters I wrote.

(YES, I am that person)

Gilly Hicks went out of business and

I BOUGHT EVERY ROSE PERFUME THEY HAD (Kirrawee)

and, again, only wore it on special occasions.

lol


The only rare perfume I didn’t hoard was the Disney x Sephora collabo

for Cinderella

I LOVED that scent.

and I eventually got near the bottom of the bottle.

I still keep that bottle.

It’s cuteaf.

But it’s the only rare item

I know I cannot replenish

that I actively used

and didn’t cry (too hard) over.


So what am I doing now?

When I shower, I spray the rose perfume

and I sleep in it.

I marinate in the perfume lol

Boss sometimes doesn’t like it when we spray at work

bc some of our scents are strong.

That goes for hand creams, too.

So I figure it’s better to marinate in it lol.

The bridal lingerie:

I am sleeping in it more often.

It’s a little depressing to think

that clothes can change your mood like that.

I even studied fashion.

I understand that clothes can elevate your mood.

You create something that appeals to people

to make them feel happy, or elegant, or elated,

or emo in some cases

in addition to being functional

(to an extent).

I wear it and feel special and elegant.

I like this feeling but am also at odds with myself

bc it makes me feel like I am so simple minded lol.

How can wearing this frock make me so happy?

And then I go back to

well, do I want to rationalize feelings?

I hate that.

Feelings aren’t usually rational

so why rationalize them?

It’s ok for me to feel cute, nice, pretty, special wearing this.

I mean, I still feel cute all day every day.

I feel good about myself every day.

I’m not searching for validity through my clothing.

And when I’m in my sweats

(as I am in now bc it really is so cold)

I don’t think of myself a slummy bum.

I have no negative connotations about myself.

I’m just too cold for the gown lol


But like the Minimalists say at the end of their podcasts,

Love people, use things. (because) The opposite never works.

What is the purpose of having

rare, beautiful, things

if we don’t use or enjoy them to their fullest potential?

Waiting for a someday that maybe won’t ever happen

or at least not happen soon enough.

Same goes for books we collect but don’t read.

Beautiful china that isn’t eaten off of,

linens that aren’t used for the bed, table, etc.

Makeup we hoard bc it was special edition lol

(Oddly not so bad with that one- just perfume)


So step back

and think about all the magical, wonderful things you may have

that you aren’t using or haven’t enjoyed to it’s fullest potential.

Read that book, or throw that dinner party

or gift these items to a friend who has been searching for it.

Marinate in your perfume after a shower! :)

Enjoy and be grateful for what we have.

If it doesn’t give us joy

hopefully, we can transfer/sell it to someone

who can enjoy it to it’s fullest potential.

 

 

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